Hosanna,

Overwhelmed with my sin tonight, one of those moments where my foolishness had left me in the depths of despair, despair at my seemingly neverending sin nature, I opened Watchman Nee's book, The Normal Christian Life. And it seemed as if our gracious Father had dropped these words of solace into my lap, to soothe my stricken heart.
"the sense of sin and guilt can become so great, so terrible as almost to cripple us, by causing us to lose sight of the true effectiveness of the Blood. It seems to us that our sins are so real, and some particular sin may trouble us so many times, that we come to the point where to us our sins loom larger than the Blood of Christ.... I may be mistaken, but I feel very strongly that some of us are thinking in terms such as these: 'Today I have been a little more careful; today I have been reading the Word of God in a warmer way, so today I can pray better."
Oh. How long have I struggled with this. SO much of the time, unknowingly. My approach to God has to be based upon the Blood, for its value has been declared by the Lord God Himself. My approach must not be based upon my "spiritual performance" of the day. That is not the basis upon which we come before Him. No. we come in boldness for He has imbued the Blood with this validation. Oh what FREEDOM! Oh blessed liberty.
If you can grasp hold of this thought despite my rambling, you will be blessed.