jenn! i'm sorry i haven't updated for so long. in about two weeks!
so.
hello!
life has just been rather...intense these past few weeks. each day these past two weeks i have been forced to say, God I cannot do this. i cannot do this. i need you Jesus. i just need you. you know what? sometimes that is so beneficial. i can't face tomorrow without the Lord. he is faithful and stumbling along in my foolishness, he teaches me to take life one day at a time. no worrying about tomorrow, next year, could haves, in case ofs, what ifs...none. i can't control anything so there is no sense in trying.
we have fall break in a few days and I couldn't be any more prepared to leave milligan.
really i just want to relax and eat thai food. maybe have a margarita. mmmm...
God is good.

this past Friday i started working at Girls Inc. it's an after school program primarily designed for girls, but my specific site works with both genders.
let me tell you... there are some precious children at this school. this five year old boy led me to the realization that someday i want a curly, mop-headed little boy. you know those boys...the ones with the floppy big head of curly hair. So cute. or i'll just take will smith's little boy in pursuit of happyness, that may require a leetle more work and a few years in a state pen...well a girl's got to do...
this job is actually going to require some outside work which is a little bit discouraging. i have to teach a couple classes, design some lessons for them. i'm really hoping it doesn't take up too much time. i don't want to be stressed out because of a part time job. but you know what? i'm glad to have this job. tutoring kids is something which i actually enjoy, so getting paid for it? amazing.
one thing that's rather hilarious- i have to teach a sports class to the boys. there are only three girls working at this specific program and the other two don't really like sports. i actually enjoy sports so i'm actually probably the best choice. which is hilarious. oh geez.

So I don't really remember when the weekly blog update had been decided. Nevertheless, I'll start now.
So I'm watching Into the Wild [finally] now. and I'm reading the book next. I normally read books before the watching the movie, not as a principle, it simply happens that way. But my friend Phil said don't watch the movie first, you'll be disappointed with the movie after the book. This way, the movie will be great and the book will just be even better. I never considered this. Thanks Phil.
books.
I could speak forever about books, ones worth reading, ones which failed to live up to my expectations, ones I could barely slough through, ones which changed my life, ones which made my life.
having no television in our home growing up was sometimes difficult as a child in the public school system. it's a hard thing to be different as a child. but this difference was more than made up for with the hours spent outdoors with my brothers and sister, the thousands of stories i devoured all the day long.
it was worth it.