wow. i am really bad at updating this thing.

so lately.

i have been restless, anxious, a little desperate. this summer, i am home. earlier this year i had begun planning a trip to india. my dream. two months working with girls rescued from the sex trade, living in a home, learning a marketable skill. one which will give them dignity, reclaim their sense of person. and i couldn't/didn't go. i don't know. i can't look back with regret, i can't do anything about it now.
yet now, i am a little desperate. i was so anxious today, looking for an organization (not so much the organization but children, children who need someone, anyone to care) in which i could invest. i feel so unfulfilled, restless, empty.
yet,
i am finding...well, as Christ has so lovingly pointed out, where is the trust in my Saviour? it is far too easy for me to forget that God loves me.
HE loves me.
and because He loves me He has not forgotten about me. He sees me where I am. He has not forgotten about me, leaving me in the desert, in a constant state of being unfulfilled.
so i'll wait. i'll trust Him. He sees what is beyond my vision. He cares beyond my knowledge. He is bigger than my foolishness. He is the Alpha and Omega. He can handle it.